Even though you don't show it to me, I still what you're keeping inside. But what irritates me the most is that you don't even give me the chance to speak. How am I to open up to you if we keep going about like this? I barely get to see you and whenever I do, I want to share with you so many things that's going on in my life. Sigh, sadly you have disappointed me but I believe that one day, you will just stop and give me a chance to speak my mind.

I really miss you and i hope we can have a nice mother and son conversation. As the saying goes, "It takes two hands to clap". So I'm not blaming anyone but myself for this thing to happen.

Due to some misconception and unnecessary confusion, i have decided to delete it.

Thank You.

the sign

Something terrible just happened. grandma's in critical condition at kampung now. Coincidentally i was playing surah yaseen on my comp and my sis told me via msn that grandma can't speak or walk. Tak kasi chance sey! even though i'm not close to grandma, we're still blood related and i'm worried for her =(

Ya Allah, sembuhkan la nenek ku dan berikan ketenangan bagi dirinya. Amin.

today was a good day, somehow. had competition in the afternoon, 400m hurdles and did a 57s race. it sucks fyi, but i dun really care much anymore. just going through the motion =/got a yellow light from mum to get me a motorcycle license. i need to show her that i'm capable enough to take care or myself.

heh can't believe i'm saying this but riding is really dangerous. but no matter how careful you are, if ur meant to get into an accident, there'll be no escape from fate. i'm not saying we can be reckless here because nabi s.a.w said "leash ur horse before you tawakkal", this means we got to put in the effort before leaving the rest to God.

anyway i'm only half way to completing the professional studies essay. i'm kindda happy about it but i still have another half more to go. to add to the burden, mr k has made us prepare a presentation which is due tomorrow. my whole body's aching!

oh guess wad? i had dinner at Seoul Gardens to celebrate ibu's birthday =D thanks ibu for being a great mum and never fail to tahan our karenas.i love you.

guess i better get back to work. at least another 100 more words and i'll wrap up. btw kakak says i have my dad's teeth! i agree =D

God bless

i know its kind of early to say this, but i've made up my mind to stop track for awhile (maybe forever?). i think the national service next year will be a more productive one. i'm talking about the cash here. all these years i've been running, sacrificing time and effort but there's no result, no purpose. not that i hate to run, in fact i love running la! especially the hurdles. but people are expecting too much too soon. i don't feel the support system la. can't i just run without worrying that coach will be disappointed? like how the skaters and roller bladders compete but their mindset has no pressure of disappointing anyone. i want that kind of environment in my sport!
ok you know what? that's what i'm going to do. just run with a free mind. nothing to lose, no one expecting anything from me. very nice, now i can't wait for sunday =D

anyway, so fast its already april. so many important dates coming!!
6th - 2nd All Comers Meet
7th - Ibu Birthday
8th - Essay and coaching dateline
10th - Prema's Written Assessment
15th - 2nd Anniversary
16th - Kak Tiqa & Kang Birthday
25th - Abg Luqman Birthday
26th - Yusof Birthday
29th - Reflective Journal Dateline

Macam-macam ada..Maka renung-renungkan =D