was surfing the web when i came across this article.

it says: "i have difficulties expressing my feelings and problems to even my loved ones.
and i am really hoping that i could just blurt out my problems to the world.
i am so tired of keeping them.
i am so tired of breaking down.
i dont think i can take them anymore.
i'm in a need to express out my feelings..."

then i thought, oh my god! thats exactly wads happening to me! to some it may seem ridiculous but hey everyone has their weakness rite? and sadly the case is,this weakness has made my relationship very shaky. although i may look ok on the outside but inside, my heart burns.it cries begging for someone to help.HELP!!

dear someone,
i check out your blog every morning and every night, even though i know that you wont be posting this month. i just wanna know how you are and how have you been doing. to know that you're happy makes me happy. to tell you the truth, im sometimes afraid of replying your smses because im afraid that if i say something wrong it'll make you feel mad or sad. hmm maybe thats why i dun talk much too cos im afraid. i know you're a good person. you have tried to make me open up to you even if im so freaking hard -headed(kepala batu).it makes me feel that you care. i want to be showed care and love just like you do. most of the time i dont feel the chemistry between us anymore. maybe its my fault? when i shut up.you're not happy and find excuses like 'i wanna sleep' or 'im tired' to escape from me. wth am i suppose to say then?? sorry that i suck at words.and i dun make u seem like im interested.you make me feel alive in my dead world every time ur with me.when u talk about other guys trying to get close with u,i am jealous even though i always say 'nah..its ok' or 'sure no problem'. heck you! why the hell wouldnt i be?! you're my girlfriend for goodness sakes!

now i realise.it is my fault.my fault not telling you all this so long time ago.
i love you.i FUCKING do.
im afraid to lose you.
you're the one who makes me feel good.
you're the only one who can give me the 'nite coughs'
you're the only one who can give me the 'nice chills' at nite.